Through A Glass Darkly (UPDATED WITH SCRIPTURE)

My heart aches.

I can feel it breaking

shattered into little pieces of glass.

It will take a miracle
to piece it back together again.

I was sure my prayers of forever

had been answered,

but I can see them fading away,
like the fog in a mystery.

Then the frustration and panic kicks in

because I have no control.

I cry,
sobbing hysterically,
then I beg,

make promises
I know I can't keep.

I don't know
what I've done wrong

or how to stop
my heart from breaking,
aching.

I've tried my best,

followed God's guidance

held His hand

I've not gone out on my own

or turned the wrong way

or followed a different road

or stayed
sitting
quietly
on the fence.

And where has that led me?

Where do I go from here?
It was me all along,

I was the one who was wrong.

It can be so hard to see
your own reflection.

I don't like the image I see,

but Jesus sees me differently,

not a reflection.
I realize

only He can give me
the love I need.

He knows me best,

sees past the lies

I see Him
through a glass darkly

He sees me
clearly

1 CORINTHIANS 13:12

FOR NOW WE SEE ONLY A REFLECTION AS IN A MIRROR; THEN WE SHALL SEE

FACE-TO-FACE.

NOW I KNOW IN PART;

THEN I SHALL KNOW FULLY,

EVEN AS I AM FULLY KNOWN.