My Prayer Today

If this is my plight, 
then I accept it Lord,

for what other decision 
do I have to make,

knowing that you hold
 my short life 
in your mighty hands, 
your glorious hands?

I wake up afraid
 that I may not be able to walk that day, 
but fear does not come from the Lord.

I Praise the Lord
 each and every day 
for the amazing way 
He provides for us, 
miraculous ways 
that would never even occur to me.

And I'm coming to terms
 with seeing angels 
and hearing God's still quiet voice, 
testing it, of course, several times.

I want to have the courage 
to explore these angel lights, 
but am fearful, 
and as I have said many times before, 
fear does not come from the Lord.  
Will it be tonight?  
Will I have a revelation tonight?  
I do so want to.  
But the years of religion have taught me 
that this is not possible, 
even though my own experiences 
have taught me otherwise.  
I want to pave the path 
for other Sisters in the Lord 
and tell them that it's okay 
to see Angels 
and to hear that still quiet voice 
that comes so deeply from your soul 
that it can only be the voice of God, 
as long as you are walking
 on the path of righteousness  
And something about being debilitated 
in your body 
to the point of needing a wheelchair to get around has a way of bringing you to your knees.  
Or you can grow bitter.  
It's your choice. 
Jesus is the same yesterday, 
today, 
and tomorrow.  
It is not He that has walked away 
or changed.

To me, it's an easy choice.  
I choose Life.
I choose the Lord.  
And as I listen to the beautiful chanting 
of my young son, 
I know there is hope.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:4-6

I Can See Clearly Now

Stuck in this wheelchair, I wonder if it's finally where God wants me to be,

if it's home.

I can see more clearly from down here,

getting used to the stares,

wanting to return them with Jesus' unconditional love.

I can still walk, but my legs are very weak and I fall very easily.

So I had to swallow my pride and catch a ride in a shiny new four-wheeler, jacked up a bit with a red afghan and pearls, cuz if anyone truly knows me knows that I won't roll normally.

Now it's time to buff up the guns.

Make the best of what God gives you,

because what you think is a curse could very well be a blessing.

Isn't that what He wants from us? To bless Him before the rocks cry out?

And don't feel sorry for me if you see me rolling down the street

because I am exactly where God wants me to be at this day and time

and I am blessed beyond measure!

Mark 6:4- Only in his own hometown among his relatives and in his own house is a prophet without honor.

I am an Overcomer! (UPDATED WITH PICTURE AND SCRIPTURE)

It's me again.

I fell yesterday.

Tried crawling but couldn't get up by myself.

Took my husband and grown son to lift me up and get me to the hospital.

Now I have to deal with being in a wheelchair 24/7 until the doctors can figure out what's wrong.

Been feeling very sorry for myself before this happened.
Very.

Now, somehow, I feel stronger. 
Much.
The only thing that can make me feel this stronger is my faith in God.

I know God is in control.
I know He has not only forgiven me of my sins, but He doesn't keep track of our failures.
Who does that?
 I know being in a wheelchair doesn't make me second rate in God's Kingdom.

And discouragement comes from the devil,

who can do us no harm whatsoever.  He is the one who is fallen and he is the one who trembles when we mention Jesus' name.

I am back,

and I am an overcomer!
Thank you Jesus for choosing me!
I am and will never be worthy.

1 JOHN 5:5

WHO IS IT THAT OVERCOMES THE WORLD?

ONLY THE ONE WHO BELIEVES

THAT JESUS

IS THE SON OF GOD.

 

FLY LITTLE BUTTERFLY, FLY (UPDATED WITH TITLE AND SCRIPTURE)

I'm fifty-eight today.
I was brought up in a certain generation 
where I was was taught not to lie
 (hitting a helpless little five-year-old was okay,
I suppose,
 just as long as you did it behind closed doors.
and kept it to yourself)  
Who would believe you anyway? 
Women were oppressed
and children were taught to keep their mouths shut unless they were spoken to first.
Keep it to yourself,
push it deep down down,
don't let anyone know what you're thinking,
because God isn't big enough to handle 
our doubts, 
our tears, 
or our fears.  
And whoever told you that hasn't even opened God's Word, 
otherwise they'd know 
that God created the world 
and everything in it.  
He is the beginning and the end.  
The Alpha and Omega.
And even though it's been 53 years, 
God has not forgotten the tears 
of that little five year old girl 
because she turned to 
Him when there was no one else
 in whom to turn.
There's more than enough room for all of us, 
the hurting, 
the beaten down, 
and the ones who are finally, freely ready to fly.
Fly, little butterfly, fly.

ECCLESIASTES 3:11-13

HE HAS MADE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL IN ITS TIME.  HE HAS ALSO SET ETERNITY IN THE HUMAN HEART; YET NO ONE CAN FATHOM WHAT GOD HAS DONE FROM BEGINNING TO END.

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WEAK (UPDATED WITH PICTURE AND SCRIPTURE NOT TO MENTION TITLE)

Discouragement and disappointment 
comes

when you become so tired that it seems
 so much easier to turn on the television rather than to open His word.

Illness has weakened my strength, 
most unfortunately,
and my eyesight, 
and that doesn't want to go away
pride 
stands in the way of asking for someone to help me stay on the path.

I don't want to stray.

Pride is a bad thing.

It kept me out of a wheelchair when my body became too weak to stand on its own.

I allowed shame to betray me 
along with the pitiful stares of the unknown,

when all along I could have been 
giving God all of the glory.

To be perfectly honest, 
it's not easy to be kind now, to return the stares with words of encouragement and love.

It's hard to say "God loves you" when you miss the healthier days, the days when you could swim for hours almost every day.

But was that really giving God glory;

blinded by my perfect swimming, 
secretly showing off, 
enjoying every second of it, to the point of exhaustion?

Isn't God getting the glory now 
by my writing that comes from my illness? 
You can never convince me 
that it has not been His divine power that the poems that God has given to me by divine inspiration have spread into 
well over 60 countries by now. 
(I've lost count.)
I could never
 have done that on my own.
 And it never would have happened 
if I had continued by being blinded 
by my self indulgence.

God is good,

I am blessed,
wheelchair and knee stabilizer and crutches
and all that.

Ae

ISAIAH 40:29

HE GIVES STRENGTH TO THE WEARY

AND INCREASES THE POWER OF THE WEAK.

PRINCESS SUNSHINE (UPDATED WITH TITLE, PICTURE & SCRIPTURE)

Down, 
down,
 down I go again,

wondering if things will stay the same,

begging for the pain to go away.

Am I all alone?

Is there anyone out there that understands,

that could use a loving hand,

that knows the pain,

that's tired of the dark clouds and the ensuing crazy endless rain?

But I have to believe what my God

has shown me,
what He has told me.

I would be nothing without my faith,

just a leaf blowing in the wind,

without any friends.

No one to help me,

all alone in this sinful world,

lying in my bed all day,

not uttering a word.

I have to remind myself

that I'm going up, not down,

because through my sufferings,

I'm bound to be blessed,

even in the little things

where those without faith are so unfortunate not to see,

and attribute these small blessings to chance or luck

or whatever they believe.

God is in control,

and He's the same 
yesterday, 
tomorrow 
and today.
God does not change.
So I guess I must continually say to myself, 
no matter what,

things will be much better than okay.

I will be blessed beyond measure

as He promised me long ago,

and this trial that I'm going through

will be scattered dust soon enough

knowing that I am the precious daughter of our King.
Huh.
Guess
that makes me
a princess.
:)

JOHN 1:12

YET TO ALL WHO DID RECEIVE HIM,

TO THOSE WHO BELIEVED IN HIS NAME,

HE GAVE THE RIGHT TO BECOME

CHILDREN OF GOD.