How can I forgive my mother who has,
with spitting words
with spitting words
filled with loathing,
called me a drug addict
just because I need to be on pain medicine
for six herniated discs and fibromyalgia?
for six herniated discs and fibromyalgia?
How can I forgive my only sister
who has, filled with hate,
mistreated me,
beat me,
lied about me to the rest of the family?
After all of the abuse
fragile me
has received,
why am I so surprised
that it continues,
no end in sight?
beat me,
lied about me to the rest of the family?
After all of the abuse
fragile me
has received,
why am I so surprised
that it continues,
no end in sight?
I know that Jesus and the apostles
had it worse.
But that doesn't mean
that it doesn't cut me through the bone,
that it doesn't cut me through the bone,
into the heart,
blood dripping
down,
down,
down,
pooling on the floor.
down,
down,
down,
pooling on the floor.
Jesus felt the same.
The hurt, the pain,
barely able to contain
the disappointment.
the disappointment.
You live your life trying to please others
with all that you have in you.
with all that you have in you.
And what do you get for it?
Beatings that no one will ever in their lifetime admit.
Cruel abusive teasing for whatever
reason:
resentment,
embarrassment,
disappointment,
clueless.
resentment,
embarrassment,
disappointment,
clueless.
All I've ever tried to do
is beg for my mother's approval.
All I've ever wanted is a big sister.
is beg for my mother's approval.
All I've ever wanted is a big sister.
But I know for a certainty
that I am a chosen child of God,
grafted into HIS family tree.
that I am a chosen child of God,
grafted into HIS family tree.
And I know for a certainty
that Jesus loves me
just the way I am,
warts and all.
So I MUST forgive
if I wish to spend eternity
with the only one
who has ever
truly
honestly
loved me.
that Jesus loves me
just the way I am,
warts and all.
So I MUST forgive
if I wish to spend eternity
with the only one
who has ever
truly
honestly
loved me.
And the beatings and the cruel teasing
will be forgotten.
All of my tears,
all of these many years,
my Jesus collected them in a bottle.
And after all of this,
when I have finished this seemingly endless race,
will be forgotten.
All of my tears,
all of these many years,
my Jesus collected them in a bottle.
And after all of this,
when I have finished this seemingly endless race,
I will live in eternal bliss.
And no one can ever take that away from me.
Jesus lives in me.
Jesus lives in me.
1 JOHN 5:5
WHO IS IT THAT OVERCOMES THE WORLD?
ONLY THE ONE WHO BELIEVES
THAT JESUS IS THE SON OF GOD.
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