Other Gods

Have I been making a mistake

by focusing so much on my daughter?

Has our lack of relationship

come between me and my Father?

Yes, I want her back in my life

more than ever.

I cry myself to sleep every night

just wishing for any sign from my baby

I need some relief.

But has my prayer life suffered?

Have I left God's side?

Do I need to be forgiven

for forsaking my relationship with my

Maker?

Have I made a God out of my daughter?

Am I the one to blame?

Am I a bad mother?

After all, she's not really mine.

She's only a gift, to be treasured for a 

time.

And is that time over?

Twenty years I had with her, closer than 

sisters

We did everything together, forged

together like twins.

Maybe I did too much, maybe I did too

little.

But in my mind I was trying to make up

for the all the many ways I was abused 

and neglected.

Maybe I went too far the other way.

But last night I had a revelation.

She's never once visited me in the 

hospital

when I was so sick and I didn't think I'd

pull through.

I was there for nearly half the year.

And now with this new ordeal, maybe 

I'm just laying too much on her little

shoulders when I should be laying 

everything on God's wide 

shoulders because His compassion, 

understanding and ability to handle is 

like no other.

I promise myself today, although I don't 

know how long it will last

that the first one I will go to with my

problems will be my Heavenly Father

rather than my daughter

He cares more, there is no doubt, only 

because He has the ability to carry the 

world on His shoulders.

2 Kings 17:35

When the Lord made a covenant with the Israelites, he commanded them: “Do not worship any other gods or bow down to them, serve them, or sacrifice to them.