I KNOW YOU KNOW (COMPLETELY REVISED)

LORD,

I KNOW

YOU KNOW

I HAVE BEEN BROKEN
TOO MANY TIMES TO COUNT,

BOTH IN BODY AND SPIRIT.

I WRITE ABOUT IT SO VERY MANY TIMES.

SHOULDN'T I HAVE ALREADY MOVED ON?

I LET THE DIRTY SECRET

OUT OF THAT DUSTY INSIDE-LOCKED CLOSET,

WHY,
OH WHY
I SIGH
 IS MY TASK YOU SET BEFORE ME YOURSELF
NOT YET COMPLETED,
BECAUSE I AM
EXHAUSTIVELY DEPLETED.
I ONLY FEEL THIS WAY, THOUGH,
WHEN I AM ALONE,
NOT LOOKING TOWARD YOUR THRONE.

LORD,
I KNOW
YOU KNOW

 THAT I AM SO TIRED OF HAVING TO PROVE MYSELF

OVER AND OVER
AND OVER AGAIN.

I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH,

I WILL NEVER BE SMART ENOUGH
FOR THEM.

AND,
DARE WE MENTION THE FACT

THAT I CONSIDER MYSELF (shrug) AN ARTIST?

BUT, JESUS, YOU MADE ME
IN YOUR IMAGE.

I AM YOURS.

I WOULD NEVER HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY.
JESUS,
I KNOW

YOU KNOW

THAT MOST DAYS I HOPE

I DON'T HAVE MUCH MORE TIME LEFT

BECAUSE JUST THE OTHER DAY

 I WAS PRETTY SURE
 I MAY HAVE JUST CAUGHT A GLIMPSE

OF THE FINISH LINE.

YES.

I KNOW.

I'M NOT DONE YET.

DON'T COUNT ME OUT.
NOT TO BE SNIPPY,
BUT
I KNOW
YOU KNOW
I'VE HEARD IT ALL BEFORE.
(OR MAYBE NOT.)

I'VE STEPPED THROUGH THIS FIRST DOOR,

THE COATROOM

SO TO SPEAK,

AND I CAN SEE A LARGER DOOR
BEYOND THIS PLACE.

AND,
HONESTLY,
I REALLY DON'T THINK
 IT'S THAT FAR.

SO I WILL STEP OUT IN FAITH,

KNOWING
ASSUREDLY
YOU WILL LIGHT MY WAY.

I TRUST IN ONLY YOU

AND YOUR WORD.

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?

BECAUSE
I KNOW
YOU KNOW

HOW VERY MUCH YOU LOVE ME SO.

2 CORINTHIANS 5:17

WE LIVE BY FAITH,

NOT BY SIGHT