WHY, OH WHY?

LORD, I DON'T MEAN TO QUESTION YOU,

BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH?

AND NOW YOU'RE ASKING

THE WEAKEST ONE

TO GO OUT AND SPREAD YOUR WORD.

HOW AM I TO DO THAT?

HOW?

I'M BROKEN,

BOTH MY BODY AND MY SOUL.

I AM SO TIRED

OF ALL OF THIS FIGHTING,

TRYING TO FORGIVE AND FORGET

WHAT THEY DID TO ME.

THEY WON'T EVEN ADMIT IT.

I THINK THAT'S WHAT HURTS THE MOST.

PLUS YOU PUT THIS

OVER-SENSITIVE SOUL

INTO THIS PIT OF SNAKES.

EVEN TO THIS DAY,

SHE MAKES ME CRY.

AND I CAN'T EVEN LOOK IN THE MIRROR

FOR FEAR OF SEEING THE MONSTER

SHE CONVINCED ME I WAS.

AND NOW THIS PAIN,

EVERY DAY,

ALL THE TIME,

SOMETIMES WORSE,

NEVER BETTER.

HOW CAN I BE A GOOD WIFE LIKE THIS?

MAKE ME WHOLE, MY SWEET JESUS,
PLEASE.

CHANGE MY HEART,

HELP ME TO REMEMBER

THAT YOU KNEW FROM THE START

WHAT I WOULD BE WRITING NOW,

MAYBE HELPING SOMEONE ELSE,

AND THAT, NO MATTER WHAT SHE DOES OR SAYS,

YOU ARE MY DADDY,

AND I AM THE APPLE OF YOUR EYE.

THANK YOU

FOR YOUR SACRIFICE
ON CALVARY.

DEUTERONOMY 32:10

IN A DESERT LAND HE FOUND HIM, IN A BARREN AND HOWLING WASTE.  HE FOUND HIM AND CARED FOR HIM;

HE GUARDED HIM AS THE APPLE OF HIS EYE.