IT'S A FREE COUNTRY

NOPE.
NO WAY, NO HOW.
NOT IN THE INNER CIRCLE.
NEVER HAVE BEEN.
IN FACT, I SINCERELY DOUBT
THAT MY PASTOR EVEN KNOWS MY NAME
OR THE SHAMEFUL THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING
IN HIS OWN CHURCH, IN HIS OWN DOMAIN
THE DISCREPCT, THE JUDGING AND HYPOCRACY.
NO, I'M NOT GOING CRAZY.
I KNOW IT'S NOT JUST ME.
AND THOSE OF US WHO ARE TORN,
HURTING SO MUCH INSIDE,
FEELING AS IF WE DO NOT BELONG,
ARE MADE TO FEEL WORSE
BECAUSE WE ARE NOT WEARING THE RIGHT DRESS OR THE RIGHT SHOES.
THIS HARLET HEART IS CRUSHED,
IN DESPAIR,
WONDERING WHERE I WILL EVER GET THE STRENGTH TO CONTINUE.
WHY ME, MY SWEET JESUS?
YOU KNOW HOW VERY WEAK I AM.
JUST ASK MY FAMILY.
AND I'M OLD.
AND I'M TIRED.
AND I'M IN PAIN.
AND I AM SO TIRED OF GETTING MY HAND BIT.
HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REACH OUT,
TRY TO BUILD BRIDGES,
PLANT SEEDS?
HAVE I NOT DONE ENOUGH
FOR YOUR KINGDOM.
I FEEL SOME TIMES AS IF I HAVE GIVEN EVERYTHING.
SO, WHAT, LORD, SHALL I CONTINUE TO SPEAK MY MIND?
SHALL I NOT BE ASHAMED THAT YOU GIVE ME VISIONS AND DREAMS?
SHALL I NOT BE ASHAMED THAT I SPEAK THE ANGELIC LANGUAGE?
SHALL I NEVER BE ASHAMED TO SAY YOUR NAME?
SO, GO AHEAD,
CUT ME OUT OF THE 'INNER CIRCLE'.
YOU SHALL NEVER STOP ME FROM TELLING MY STORY.

PHILLIPIANS 4:7

AND THE PEACE OF GOD, WHICH TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING, WILL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND YOUR MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.