JESUS, PLEASE (UPDATED WITH SCRIPTURE AND A NEW PICTURE)

I WISH I COULD SAY THAT I'M BETTER TODAY,

BUT I'M NOT.

I WISH I COULD SAY THAT MY FAITH IS STRONGER TODAY,

BUT IT'S NOT.

OH, I KNOW ALL THE SCRIPTURES,

I HAVE STUDIED EVERY WORD.

BUT WHEN EVERY DAY

YOU JUST WANT TO 

SCREAM,
SHOUT,
CRY OUT TO THE WORLD,
WHY
AND SAY

'WHY DO YOU CARRY ON

AS IF NOTHING IS WRONG,

AS IF EVERYTHING IS OKAY?

WHY DO YOU TELL ME YOU'RE GOING TO PRAY,

THEN JUST WALK AWAY?

IF YOU REALLY WANT TO PRAY,

THEN JUST TAKE A SECOND OUT OF YOUR PRECIOUS DAY,

AND PRAY.'

I KNOW THERE ARE SO MANY OUT THERE

HURTING MORE THAN ME.

BUT WHEN YOU'RE SUFFERING IT'S SO EASY NOT TO SEE AND

TO THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO IS HURTING.

AND WHEN THE PAIN IN YOUR BONES SEEMS UNENDING,

YOU JUST WANT TO CRY OUT TO THE LORD

'TAKE ME HOME!

I WANT MY HEAVENLY BODY!

I WANT MY JOB TO BE DONE!'

BUT SUDDENLY A LIGHT GOES ON

AND I REALIZE

THAT THERE ARE STILL THOSE IN THE WORLD

WHO HAVEN'T MET THE LORD.

THERE ARE THOSE IN THE PAST

THAT HAVE SUFFERED MUCH MORE THAN I COULD EVER KNOW.

SO HOW CAN I ASK

THE ONE WHO IS IN CONTROL

TO TAKE ME HOME BEFORE MY JOB IS DONE?

WHO AM I TO COMPLAIN

WHEN JESUS DIED FOR MY SINS,

NAILED TO THE CROSS,

BLEEDING FOR THE LOST

THAT HAD YET TO BE BORN?

SO, PLEASE FORGIVE ME, LORD,

FOR BEING SO SHORT-SIGHTED

AND ONLY SEEING MY WORLD.

FOR CRYING EVERY DAY,

FIGHTING THROUGH THE FRAY

I KNOW, DEEP INSIDE,

YOUR THOUGHTS ARE NOT MY OWN,

AND I AM NOT CAPABLE OF EVER COMPREHENDING WHAT YOU KNOW

OR WHAT YOU FEEL.

FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING MORE COMPASSIONATE AND UNDERSTANDING,

SO QUICK TO JUDGE,

NOT REFLECTING YOUR LOVE.

PLEASE, LORD, TAKE THIS UNFORGIVENESS FROM INSIDE OF ME,

THIS BITTERNESS, ANGER AND PAIN IN MY HEART.

HELP ME TO RECONCILE,

REALIZE,

THAT I MAY ALWAYS BE IN PAIN,

BUT 

YOU ARE ALWAYS IN CONTROL.

ISAIAH 55:8-9
"FOR MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS, NEITHER ARE YOUR WAYS MY WAYS," DECLARES THE LORD.