GOD KNOWS (UPDATED WITH SCRIPTURE)

SOME DAYS I FEEL AS IF NO ONE UNDERSTANDS MY SUFFERING,

AND THE LEVEL OF PAIN I DEAL WITH 

EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY.

SO I GO TO THE LORD 

AND I UNCEASINGLY PRAY.

I KNOW HE HAS A REASON, 

ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER KNOW WHY

HE MADE ME SO SENSITIVE TO PAIN, 

SO EASILY TO CRY. 

AND I KNOW THAT THERE HAVE BEEN OTHERS 

WHO SUFFER MUCH MORE THAN I.

BUT THAT DOESN'T REALLY HELP 

ON THOSE DAYS THAT I JUST WANT TO 

FALL TO THE FLOOR 

AND BEG GOD TO TAKE THE PAIN AWAY

EVEN IF IT'S JUST FOR ONE DAY.

I DON'T WANT TO SEEM THAT I'M UNGRATEFUL, 

FOR I KNOW THAT I AM BLESSED.

I HAVE A HUSBAND THAT CARES FOR ME DEEPLY

 AND TWO SONS THAT COULD LOVE ME NO LESS.

BUT JUST  WHEN IT SEEMS I'M GETTING BETTER,

FATE SEEMS TO STRIKE ME DOWN YET AGAIN

AND I FIND IT DIFFICULT 

TO JUST GET OUT OF BED.

I DON'T KNOW WHY 

SOMEONE THAT SO EASILY CRIES

AND FEELS PAIN SO MUCH MORE THAN OTHERS

HAS BEEN CHOSEN TO SUFFER.

BUT I DO KNOW THAT WITHOUT MY FAITH IN THE LORD

I WOULDN'T BE HERE TO TESTIFY

IN GOD'S UNFAILING LOVE 

AND THAT HE KNOWS WHY
HE MADE ME ME.

PSALM 27:13-14

I AM STILL CONFIDENT OF THIS:  I WILL SEE THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.  WAIT FOR THE LORD; BE STRONG AND TAKE HEART AND WAIT FOR THE LORD.