YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH
FOREVER, IT SEEMS,
BOTH PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY YET AGAIN.
I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME,
ENCOURAGES,
CALMS
AND STRENGTHENS ME
WHEN I LISTEN TO SONGS ABOUT YOU, MY SWEET JESUS,
SING ALONG IN WORSHIP,
ALL THE TIME PRAYING, CRYING
(WELL, CRYING'S A GIVEN)
AND MEMORIZING YOUR WORD,
(WOMEN KNOW HOW TO MULTI-TASK)
AND, AS INSTRUCTED,
WRITE YOUR WORDS ON MY HEART,
ADDRESS NOT NECESSARILY INCLUDED.
I BELIEVE I'M ON THE PATH
YOU HAVE SET BEFORE ME,
YOU, MY SWEET JESUS, ALONE.
THEN, SUDDENLY,
JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE SUPPOSEDLY IN CHARGE
TELLS ME, NOPE, I'M NOT DOING WHAT IS RIGHT,
EVEN THOUGH I TRY TO TELL HIM WHY.
HE SAYS TO ME, "TAKE THIS DETOUR, SISTER,
O, AND YES,
STUDY DIFFERENT SCRIPTURE."
TO BE HONEST, I DON'T QUITE UNDERSTAND.
BUT, IF IT HELPS, I PROMISE I WILL SPEND
A FEW MINUTES STUDYING THE BOOK OF EPHESIANS.
AND OF COURSE,
IF YOU SAY SO 'CUZ YOU KNOW
SO MUCH ABOUT MY DAY-TO-DAY-LIFE,
MEMORIZE THE "RIGHT" SCRIPTURE.
HONESTLY, THOUGH,
TO MY SILLY EYES,
WHAT YOU HAVE ORDERED ME TO DO
HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO
WITH THIS PATH
I'VE BEEN ON FOR OVER A DECADE NOW.
YOU KNOW,
THE ONE MY SWEETJESUS HAS SET BEFORE ME?
AND, STAYING ON THIS PATH
AND PRAYING
UNCEASINGLY
FOREVER?
GUESS WHAT?
MY DEEPEST PRAYERS
ARE BEING ANSWERED WITH THE RETURN
OF MY SWEET DAUGHTER.
JUST TRYING TO FOLLOW HIS WORD.
BUT I GUESS IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I'M BEING HURT.
I DON'T JUST WALK HIS PATH
THAT HE SET BEFORE ME LONG AGO,
EVEN BEFORE I WAS EVEN BORN,
TO TAKE MY TIME AWAY
FROM YOU, MY SWEET JESUS.
I DON'T WANT TO TURN MY ATTENTION
AGAIN
TO TELEVISION.
EVEN THOUGH I LIKE A CERTAIN SERIES
DOESN'T MEAN IT WILL HELP ME SPIRITUALLY.
ONLY SPENDING AS MUCH TIME AS IS HUMANLY POSSIBLE,
TAKING INTO CONSIDERATION
MY CURRENT PHYSICAL CONDITION,
WITH MY SWEET JESUS
CAN GIVE ME THE HELP I SO DESPERATELY NEED.
MY SWEET JESUS,
I LONG TO KNOW YOUR WORD MORE.
I WANT TO SPEND TIME TALKING TO YOU.
I WANT TO PLANT AS MANY SEEDS AS I CAN.
(AFTER ALL, I AM THE GRANDDAUGHTER
OF A COTTON FARMER).
AND, EVEN THOUGH IT HASN'T HAPPENED YET,
I WILL NOT GIVE UP
ON ASKING YOU TO HOLD MY HAND
AND TAKE ME THROUGH A WALK IN YOUR
BEAUTIFUL GARDEN.
HOW SWEET YOU ARE, JESUS,
TO TAKE SUCH A SHY NOT TO MENTION SENSITIVE GIRL
AND TURN HER INTO ME.
THESE SIMPLE WORDS I WRITE, AS I HAVE SAID BEFORE,
THAT COME FROM YOU,
HAVE BEEN READ,
WONDERFULLY,
UNPREDICTABLY,
NOT JUST ALL OVER THIS COUNTRY,
BUT ALL OVER THE GLOBE.
I JUST PRAY
I HAVE PLANTED AT LEAST ONE SEED,
LOVINGLY.
AS IT IS WRITTEN IN YOUR WORD,
YOU TAKE THE WEAK, JESUS, TO SHAME THE STRONG.
PS: COULD SOMEONE PLEASE TURN ONE OF MY POEMS INTO A SONG?
PSALM 84:10
BETTER IS ONE DAY IN YOUR COURTS
THAN A THOUSAND ELSEWHERE.
PSALM 35:4
MAY THOSE WHO SEEK MY LIFE BE DISGRACED AND PUT TO SHAME; MAY THOSE WHO PLOT MY RUIN BE TURNED BACK IN DISMAY.
PSALM 34:18
THE LORD IS CLOSE TO THE BROKENHEARTED AND SAVES THOSE WHO ARE CRUSHED IN SPIRIT.
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