FROZEN

I AM FROZEN.
I CAN'T GET OUT OF BED.
I CAN'T STOP CRYING,
FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF
BECAUSE I PUT MY HOPE IN MANKIND
RATHER THAN MY LORD.
THAT'S WHAT'S WRONG.
WHY HAVEN'T I LEARNED?
WHAT'S TAKING SO LONG?
MY LIFE IS NEARLY OVER.
I DON'T THINK I HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT.
BUT I'M FROZEN
AND CAN'T SEEM TO GET OUT OF BED.
I TRUSTED IN THE WRONG THING LORD,
AND NOW I'M SAD AND ALONE
AND STILL BROKENHEARTED,
BUT MORE.
I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE
TO HAVE ALL OF THESE MIXED FEELINGS.
HAPPY, O SO HAPPY, BECAUSE MY DAUGHTER
IS COMING BACK TO ME.
BUT SAD AND BROKEN
BECAUSE I TRUSTED IN THE WRONG THING,
AGAIN.
WILL I EVER LEARN MY LESSON,
OR WILL I DIE TRUSTING IN MANKIND?
I JUST WANT YOUR WILL,
REALLY, LORD,
FOR YOU ARE MY SAVIOR,
MY REDEEMER,
MY ROCK.
I KNOW THIS STORM WILL PASS,
BUT CAN I JUST GET A LITTLE REST?
CAN YOU CALM THIS STORM?
JESUS, 
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME.
JUST LET ME TOUCH THE BOTTOM OF YOUR ROBE.
LET ME BE IN YOUR PRESENCE ALL DAY LONG.
LET ME SIT AT YOUR FEET,
LOOK UP AT YOUR FACE.
JUST LET ME COME HOME.
BECAUSE I'M FROZEN.

PSALM 39:7

BUT NOW, LORD, WHAT DO I LOOK FOR?

MY HOPE IS IN YOU.