I AM NOT NOTHING

I FIND MYSELF
NOT WANTING TO GET OUT OF BED
TODAY,
JUST STAY IN MY PJs
AND MINDLESSLY WATCH TV
AND PONDER ON THE FACT
WHY IN H-E-DOUBLE HOCKY STICKS 
MY PASTORS REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE
THE SPIRITUAL GIFTS FROM THE BOOK OF 1 CORINTHIANS,
CHAPTER TWELVE,
MY GOD HAS GIVEN ME.
WHY THE MOCKING?
WHY THE DISBELIEF?
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT CUTS MY HEART,
YOU THINKING I AM CRAZY?
AND THEN BEING THROWN OUT OF YOUR BIBLE STUDY
FOR FEELING FREE ENOUGH
TO SHARE MY SPIRITUAL GIFTS AND MY LOVE?
WHAT DO YOU HAVE IN STORE FOR ME, LORD?
I KNOW YOU HAVE GIVEN ME THESE PARTICULAR GIFTS
FOR A REASON.
YOU DO NOT DO ANYTHING THAT IS NOT MEANT
TO BE DONE IN THIS END TIMES SEASON.
SO WHY ME?
WHY AM I THE ONE
THAT SEES THE UNSEEN
THAT KNOWS THE UNKNOWN,
THAT SPEAKS IN A DIFFERENT KIND OF TONGUE?
I AM THE WEAKEST OF THE WEAK,
NOT EVEN ABLE TO STAND UP ON MY OWN.
AND I'M OLD.
WHY DID YOU LEAD ME TO THIS PLACE?
DON'T GET ME WRONG.
I LOVE THE PRAISE AND WORSHIP
AND THE PEOPLE I HAVE MET NOT OUT OF CHANCE.
BUT THE FACT THAT MOST OF THE PASTORS THERE
LOOK AT ME WITH DISDAIN
CAUSES SO MUCH PAIN.
THEN I REMEMBER WHAT YOU HAVE SAID,
THAT A PROPHET IS NOT WELCOME
IN HIS OWN HOME TOWN
AND THAT YOUR GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME.
SO THE FACT THAT THEY CHOOSE NOT TO BELIEVE
THE GIFTS YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH
WILL NOT STOP ME FROM SERVING YOU,
PUTTING YOU FIRST,
FINISHING THIS RACE
YOU HAVE PLACED BEFORE ME,
GLORIFYING YOUR NAME
DESPITE THE NAYSAYERS.
I WILL BE WANT YOU WANT ME TO BE.
AND WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT DO NOT WISH
TO BELIEVE,
I WILL REMEMBER THAT CHAPTER IN YOUR WORD,
AND KNOW THAT CHANGE IN THIS WORLD
STARTS WITH ONE PERSON BEING OBEDIENT
TO WHAT YOU HAVE CALLED THEM TO BE --
A PROPHET AND ABLE TO SPEAK THE ANGELIC LANGUAGE.
I SHALL DUST MY FEET AND BELIEVE
BECAUSE
WITHOUT YOU, JESUS, I WOULD BE
A POET WITHOUT A MESSAGE.


2 CORINTHIANS 12:19 -- BUT HE SAID TO ME, "MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU, FOR MY POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS." THEREFORE I WILL BOAST ALL THE MORE GLADLY ABOUT MY WEAKNESSES, SO THAT CHRIST'S POWER MAY REST ON ME.

1 CORINTHIANS 12:7 -- NOW TO EACH ONE THE MANIFESTATION OF THE SPIRIT IS GIVEN FOR THE COMMON GOOD.  TO ONE THERE IS GIVEN THROUGH THE SPIRIT A MESSAGE OF WISDOM, TO ANOTHER A MESSAGE OF KNOWLEDGE BY MEANS OF THE SAME SPIRIT, TO ANOTHER GIFTS OF HEALING BY THAT ONE SPIRIT, TO ANOTHER MIRACULOUS POWERS, TO ANOTHER PROPHECY, TO ANOTHER DISTINGUISHING BETWEEN SPIRITS, TO ANOTHER SPEAKING IN DIFFERENT KINDS OF TONGUES, AND TO STILL ANOTHER THE INTERPRETATION OF TONGUES.  ALL THESE ARE THE WORK OF ONE AND THE SAME SPIRIT, AND HE DISTRIBUTES THEM TO EACH ONE, JUST AS HE DETERMINES.