HERE I STAND (UPDATED WITH SCRIPTURE)

Another day, another chance

to make things right,
to fight the good fight.

I am blessed.

But I sure wish this pain

would stop raining

on my parade.
And this little dark cloud
following me around?
That has to stop
right now.
I know
I could use some focus,

introspection,

contemplation.
And who couldn't use
more time
with our Lord?

I tell myself,

some sunny day

things will change.

I  walk by faith.
Is there any other way?
I have to,
I'm a little short-sighted.
Most importantly,
though
I seem to recall you told me to.

But the sour taste of bitterness

chokes

my throat.

Why am I the one

who was chosen

to live this

life of suffering
and share with the hundreds of thousands
of people all around your world
that you hold in your hand
my deepest hurts
and innermost heartfelt feelings?

I cut my finger,

and I scream.

I am haunted

by my dreams.
Who is more sensitive than me?

But I believe

God, my Creator, believes in me
when no one else ever has.

He chose me for a purpose,

so I could tell others that they are not worthless.

I'd rather be in pain,

every day the same,

than live separated

from the One who made us,
Jesus.

Life's not fair,
He never once said it would be.
But here I am.
On solid ground, here I still stand

another day,
another month,
another year,
another decade.
I'm in more pain now,
but I'm still here
and here I will be
until I've reached
the finish line.

ISAIAH 43:18-19,

FORGET THE FORMER THINGS,

DO NOT DWELL ON THE PAST.

SEE

I AM DOING A NEW THING, NOW IT SPRINGS UP.

DO YOU NOT PERCEIVE IT?

I AM MAKING A WAY IN THE WILDERNESS

AND STREAMS IN THE WASTELAND.

GALATIANS 6:9

LET US NOT BECOME WEARY IN DOING GOOD,

FOR AT THE PROPER TIME WE WILL REAP A HARVEST

IF WE DO NOT GIVE UP.