HELP ME

IT HAPPENED YEARS AGO,
BUT THE HURT IS STILL THERE,
THE QUESTIONS.
AND I'M STILL PAYING FOR IT
WITH THIS MOST OF THE TIME
 EXCRUCIATING PAIN
AND THE DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY AND PANIC
AND FEELING LIKE A NOTHING BECAUSE I NEED TO USE
A WHEELCHAIR TO GET AROUND
DOES NOT HELP WITH THE BITTERNESS
THAT WANTS TO GROW.
I DO NOT HAVE A CLUE
HOW ANYONE CAN GO THROUGH
THIS KIND OF TEST
WITHOUT TURNING TO JESUS.
IT'S EITHER HIM OR ANGER AND ACERBITY.
GOD CAN TAKE THAT INSUFFERABLE ACIDITY
THAT LINGERS AND SCARS
YOUR ALL READY SCARRED HEART
AND THROW IT FOREVER INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE.
LORD, HEAL ME OF THESE DEEP SCARS
THAT STILL BLEED.
HELP ME.

ISAIAH 53:5

BUT HE WAS PIERCED FOR OUR TRANSGRESSIONS,

HE WAS CRUSHED FOR OUR INIQUITIES;

THE PUNISHMENT THAT BROUGHT US PEACE WAS HIM,

AND BY HIS WOUNDS WE ARE HEALED.