TEARS AGAIN (UPDATED)

I'VE ASKED THIS SO MANY TIMES, LORD,
BUT WHY CHOOSE ME?
YOU'VE SEEN WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH,
THE BRUISES,
THE BLOOD,
THE HURTS,
AND MUST I MENTION
THE MISERABLENESS OF MY YOUTH.
ALWAYS FEELING LIKE NOTHING,
STUPID AND UGLY,
LESS THAN DIRT.
TEARS FALLING,
UNCEASINGLY TEASED
FOR WHATEVER REASON.
I WAS TOO TALL,
I WAS TOO THIN,
I HAD A FUNNY VOICE,
I NEVER FIT IN.
ON AND ON AND ON IT WENT.
SO WHO AM I TO SPREAD YOUR WORD?
ISN'T THERE SOMEONE MORE VOCAL YOU CAN CHOOSE?
AND NOW I'M STUCK IN THIS STUPID WHEELCHAIR.
SO, REALLY, LORD,
WHO'S GOING TO WANT TO LISTEN TO ME?
THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO OFFER IS YOU.

PSALM 126:5

THOSE WHO SOW WITH TEARS WILL REAP WITH SONGS OF JOY.