OUT OF THE SHADOWS (RVD)

THAT WINDOW THAT I THOUGHT WAS OPENED

AFTER THE DOOR WAS CLOSED

MAY JUST HAVE BEEN MY IMAGINATION

RUNNING AWAY WITH ME,

FORCING ME TO LOSE MY DIGNITY.

OR MAYBE, GOD WILLING, THAT WINDOW MIGHT NOT BE COMPLETELY CLOSED

AND I MUST FIGHT FOR A WAY TO GET THROUGH

SO OTHERS CAN KNOW WHAT I KNOW.

WHICH IS THAT GOD LOVES EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US EQUALLY.

 HE DOESN'T PLAY THE FAVORITE GAME,

THE GAME THAT HAPPENED IN MY FAMILY,

ME BEING SHOVED INTO THE CORNER

IN ORDER

THAT MY SISTER MAY RECEIVE THE LOVE AND COMFORT
SHE SO DESERVED
AND

THAT WAS POURED UPON HER BECAUSE OF HER DISABILITY.

THE AMAZING THING I HAVE LEARNED SINCE

IS
THAT GOD LOVES THE TWO OF US THE SAME.

THIS BRINGS ME COMFORT WHEN FLASHES OF MY CHILDHOOD RUN THROUGH MY BRAIN
LIKE A SCARY MOVIE
MY MOTHER FORCED ME TO WATCH ON TV
AS A CHEAP BABYSITTER.
I STILL SUFFER FROM THE INSECURITIES
AND EMOTIONAL PAIN
AS IF I WAS STILL THAT ADORABLE LITTLE GIRL,
WITH THE SUN-STREAKED CURLS,
HUDDLING IN THE DARK CORNER,
JUST WISHING FOR SOMEONE
TO CONVINCE HER SHE WAS LOVED.
PRAISE GOD FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE
AT SUCH AN EARLY AGE.
GOD KNEW I NEEDED A FATHER,
NOT TO MENTION A KING.
IF NOT, WHO KNOWS WHERE I MIGHT BE,
RATHER THAN MARRIED TO A CHRISTIAN MAN
THAT TREATS ME AS THE GOOD BOOK SAYS
AND THAT GIVES ME THE COURAGE
TO WRITE WHAT I WRITE,
DESPITE THOSE WHO WERE HERE
TO PROTECT ME 
HURT ME,
BOTH PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.
NO HARM
NO FOUL
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
THAT CAN COME OUR WAY
THAT WE CAN'T HANDLE
WITHOUT OUR LORD.
SO THAT IS THAT
AND,
NOT SORRY TO SAY,
I AM HERE TO STAY
AS LONG AS I KNOW
THAT I AM HELPING SOMEONE ELSE
FAR AWAY
TO FALL TO THEIR KNEES
AND THANK GOD AND PRAY.
SO OUT I COME FROM THE SHADOWS,
DISABILITY BE DARNED,
FOR I KNOW
NOW
THAT GOD IS 
THE ONLY ONE
IN CONTROL.