ERASE, ERASE, ERASE (RVD, RVD)

ANGELS SURROUND,

I CAN FEEL THE FLUTTER

OF THEIR PROTECTIVE WINGS.

PEACE

ABOUNDS

ONLY WITH JESUS

IN MY HEART.

THE HOLY GHOST

SURROUNDS.

HOW COULD I EVER LIVE

WITHOUT MY SAVOR,

MY LORD,

MY KING.

OKAY,

I CONFESS,

THIS LIFE HAS NOT BEEN THE BEST.

BUT,

I GUESS,

BY WHAT HAS BEEN BEEN TOLD TO ME
DIRECTLY

IT WILL ONLY TAKE

A SECOND IN HEAVEN

TO ERASE,

ERASE,

ERASE

 ALL 

OF THIS MESS.
NO BAD MEMORIES
LEFT.

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'VE GOT UNTIL IT'S GONE

I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL YET AGAIN
FOR TWO WEEKS THIS TIME,
VERY ILL.
AND IT'S TRUE, 
YOU KNOW, 
THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT 
YOU'VE GOT UNTIL IT'S GONE.
ALL OF THE SILLY LITTLE THINGS 
THAT BOTHERED ME HERE AT HOME,
LYING IN THAT BED FOR SO LONG.
I MISSED SO MUCH 
AND LONGED TO BE GONE,
HOME I MEAN.
SO HERE I AM NOW, 
BACK WHERE I BELONG,
CUDDLING WITH MY LITTLE DOG
AND KNOWING THAT GOD 
HAS BLESSED ME 
BEYOND MEASURE,
ASSURED BY THE FACT 
THAT JESUS IS ALWAYS
BY MY SIDE.

AM I?

AM I MAKING A DIFFERENCE?
IS ANYONE READING MY WORDS?
IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T GOTTEN THE MESSAGE, WE'RE LIVING IN AN UPSIDE DOWN WORLD.
IS THIS PAIN THAT I SUFFER 
EVERY DAY 
BEING ENDURED IN VAIN?
WILL ANYONE WHEN I'M GONE EVEN REMEMBER MY NAME?
I SET OUT ON THIS QUEST TO JUST HELP ONE PERSON
WHO HAS GONE THROUGH WHAT I HAVE, BEING AN OUTCAST,
A COMPLETE AND TOTAL MESS,
OR SO I'VE BEEN LED TO BELIEVE.
AM I STRIKING A CHORD?
I TOLD MYSELF THAT IF I COULD HELP JUST ONE OTHER,
THEN THIS PAIN THAT I GO THROUGH,
CONTINUOUSLY,
UNENDINGLY,
WILL NOT BE IN VAIN.
AND THAT'S ALL THAT I ASK,
TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE,
TO GIVE THEM HOPE
AND LET THEM KNOW
THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE.
ANGELS SURROUND YOU IF YOU LET THEM.
CALL OUT TO THE HEAVENLY HOST.
AND GOD ABOUNDS.
WHOMEVER CALLS OUT
WILL NEVER BE LEFT ALONE.
DESPITE WHAT YOU MAY HAVE HEARD,
THERE'S A PURPOSE FOR YOUR LIFE
AS THERE IS FOR MINE.
BUT YOU MUST BRAVELY MAKE A CHOICE IN THE PATH THAT YOU TAKE.
AS FOR ME, DESPITE THE DEGREGATION AND HUMILIATION THAT WAS DISHED OUT TO ME REGULARLY ALL OF MY LIFE,
I CHOOSE THE STRAIGHT AND NARROW,
FOR I WISH, IN MY DEEPEST SORROW,
TO BE LIFTED UP AND CARRIED
BY THE ONE THAT I FOLLOW.
HIS NAME IS JESUS.

Beltashazzar - NOT A POEM, JUST AN OBSERVATION (HEY, WAIT A SECOND, MAYBE THIS IS A POEM)

IF YOU HAVE GONE SO FAR
AS TO HAVE READ 
GOD'S HOLY 
WORD,
WHICH IS 
PENNED 
NOT BY MEN 
BUT COMES FROM GOD ALONE;
IF YOU'VE READ
AS I'VE SAID,
YOU WILL, 
IF YOU HAVE YET NOT,
COME ACROSS A MAN 
CALLED BELTASHAZZAR.
WELL,
THE NAME THE BABYLON KING
AT THE TIME,
AKA
NEBUCHADNEZZAR,
ONE TO BE HIGHLY
FEARED,
CAME TO DANIEL, 
A MAN OF GOD,
WANTING 
TO BE HIS FRIEND.
NOW DANIEL, 
HANDSOME 
AND WITHOUT DEFECT, 
WAS SELECTED 
AMONGST OTHERS 
OF YOUNG MEN OF THE SAME. 
HE WAS OFFERED FOOD AND WINE STRAIGHT FROM 
THE TABLE OF THE KING.
DANIEL, VERY BOLDLY, 
REFUSED THESE TASTY FAVORS, TELLING THE KING'S CHIEF OFFICIAL
THAT HE DID NOT WISH 
TO DEFILE HIS TEMPLE
WITH THESE RICHES.
SO I PONDER, 
IN THESE EARLY DAYS 
OF MY DANIEL FAST, 
WHY WOULD HE DO SUCH A THING?
WAS HE NUTS?
WHAT COMES TO MIND IS THIS:
MAYBE DANIEL WAS MORE CONCERNED ABOUT HIS TEMPLE THAN HIS TASTE OR EVEN THE WRATH OF THE KING.
AFTER 10 DAYS OF LIVING
ON JUST VEGETABLE AND
FRUIT JUICE
AND WATER,
DANIEL AND HIS FRIENDS, 
SHADRACH, 
MESHACH 
AND, ABEDNEGO, 
(I PRAY THOSE THREE NAMES
SOUND FAMILIAR)
ENDED UP BEING MUCH MORE HEALTHIER THAN THE OTHER ISRAELITES WHO HAD BEEN SELECTED FOR THE KING'S SERVICE.
SO HERE IS MY TEST: 
AFTER 7 DAYS OF 
JUST VEGETABLE AND FRUIT JUICE
WILL MY TEMPLE RESPOND
IN KIND?
(HEY, I'M NOT STANDING 
ON THE CORNING
WHINING AND BEGGING,
I'M JUST WRITING FROM MY HEART.)
FOR I AM IN DESPERATE NEED 
OF SOME KIND OF HEALTH RESTORED TO THIS RAVAGED TEMPLE
OF THE LORD'S. 
IN FACT, I WILL GO SO FAR 
AS TO EXTEND 
MY SO CALLED
GOD IMMERSION.

WILL YOU JOIN ME, COLLECTIVELY, IN PRAYING THAT GOD RESTORES MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAUGHTER?


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH - PHILIPPINES 3:14

SET ME FREE

Lord, please 
cleanse me of this
bitterness.
Sweep my heart,
make it yours,
let my house be clean enough
for you to dwell.
I know I hold
this unforgiveness
that has scarred my sou
responsible
for what they did to me.
But I'm so tired 
of holding
onto the past,
so please, Jesus,
set me free.

GOODBYE, FAREWELL LONLINESS

LYING,

WRITING,

SOFTLY IN MY SOFT BED,

MY SWEET HUSBAND

IS BY MY SIDE,

SNORING

NOISILY,

BUT THAT'S OKAY.

MY LITTLE DOG ELVIS

SNUGGLES

UNDER THE COVERS

AT MY FEET.

SUDDENLY

IT HITS ME

HOW BLESSED I AM.

JUST A FEW YEARS AGO,

A BLINK IN OUR LORD'S EYES,

I WAS ALONE AND LONELY,

FEELING VERY SORRY FOR MYSELF.

IS THIS ALL THERE IS?

BUT,

LOOK,

NOW I AM MARRIED,

GETTING CLOSER TO MY LORD,

AND THE LONELINESS

HAS FLED.

GOODBYE FENCE

JUST BECAUSE

YOU DON'T BELIEVE,

HIS WORD,

NOT ME,

DOESN'T MEAN

HE DOESN'T EXIST.

THE ENTIRE POINT OF THIS,

YOU SEE,

IS TO WALK BY FAITH,

ONLY SEEING

A DISTORTED REFLECTION,

NEVER ALLOWED

TO SEE THE ENTIRE PICTURE

CLEARLY.

TRUE FAITH

IS STEPPING OUT,

NOT KNOWING WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT.

SEND THE STORMS

RAIN ON ME, LORD,

SEND THE STORMS,

NEVER LET ME GO.

I NEED YOUR HOLY SPIRIT

LIKE NEVER BEFORE.

BUT THE PROBLEM IS,

LONELINESS

JUST WANTS TO CREEP

INTO THE CORNERS OF MY SOUL.

YOU SEE THE SCARS,

YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.

SO PLEASE, JESUS,

HEAL MY 

SCARRED,

LONELY 

SOUL.

IS IT ME? (RVD)

HERE I LIE, LORD, 
BROKEN,
WISHING THINGS WERE DIFFERENT,
BUT KNOWING 
DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART
THAT THINGS WILL NEVER CHANGE.
AND THAT HURTS.
I MUST, SOMEHOW, COME TO TERMS
WITH WHAT HAS BEEN PUT ON MY PLATE.
HAVE YOU DONE THIS, LORD,
OR IS IT JUST ME?
AM I THE ONE WHO MESSED IT UP?
HAVE I NOT DRUNKEN FROM THE RIGHT CUP?
HOW CAN I GUARD MY HEART LIKE YOU SAY
WHEN I AM SO SENSITIVE IN EVERY WAY?
AM I THE ONE 
WHO IS RESPONSIBLE 
FOR THIS BROKENNESS?
IF SO, PLEASE FORGIVE ME, LORD,
AND CHANGE ME,
KNIT TOGETHER MY SOUL.

PROVERBS 4:2-3:

ABOVE ALL ELSE, GUARD YOUR HEART,

FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO

FLOWS THROUGH IT.

WHY?(RVD)

WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF,
EVERY TIME,
THROWING MYSELF
UNDER THE BUS?
I CARE,
BUT THEN YOU STOMP ON MY HEART,
LEAVING ME BLEEDING,
BROKEN,
STILL HURTING
AFTER ALL OF THESE YEARS.
WHY DO I LET YOU
GET UNDER MY SKIN
WHEN I KNOW THAT IF I DO
I WILL FEEL LIKE I'M FIVE AGAIN?
PUSHED INTO A CORNER,
NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK
ALL BECAUSE MY SISTER
WAS ALWAYS GETTING SICK.
IT'S NOT MY FAULT, YOU KNOW,
SO PLEASE STOP BLAMING ME.
AND IF IT WASN'T FOR MY LORD
I WOULD WANT TO DISAPPEAR.
HE SOUGHT ME AND CAUGHT ME
WHEN I WAS FIVE,
AND I THANK HIM EVERY DAY
FOR KNOCKING ON MY HEART
AND LIVING IN MY SOUL,
TAKING MY SELF
AND MAKING ME WHOLE.
STILL, I WISH YOU WOULD JUST HEAR ME
WHEN I CRY OUT TO YOU.
MY LORD HEARS ME, THOUGH,
AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME.

ME, ME, ME (RVD)

I OFTEN WONDER 
IF JUST SOMETIMES
GOD THINKS I'M TOO NEEDY, WHINY,
FALLING ON MY KNEES,
THINKING AND PRAYING 
FOR ONLY ME
WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS
ON THIS PLANET 
WITH SO MANY NEEDS.
YET I CONTINUE 
TO PRAY 
CONTINUOUSLY
FOR ME.
WHICH IS NOT TO SAY
THAT I DON'T TAKE THE TIME
TO THINK AND PRAY
FOR OTHERS,
EVEN PEOPLE I DON'T EVEN KNOW
BECAUSE I AM REMINDED 
BY MY MOTHER
THAT EVEN THOUGH 
I DON'T LIKE 
THOSE WHO ARE IN CONTROL
I MUST STILL PRAY FOR THEM
TO SEE THE LIGHT
AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT
BECAUSE THERE ARE SO MANY OF US
DEPENDING ON THEM
TO KEEP US ALIVE.