GOLDEN TICKET (UPDATED WITH NAME AND HAD TO ADD SCRIPTURE)

I will not let others say
 I do not have enough faith 
because I have yet to be healed.

I know there is a reason why I am still ill.

Despite the pain,

I can still serve God.

I have a purpose in this life,

maybe not what I foresaw
or what others wanted for me
so as not to be a disappointment 
or an embarrassment.

But I've been made to give Jesus glory,

and if I must suffer for a season,

then it's His will, although I may never know the reason
until I am finally blessed
to see my sweet Jesus face-to-face,
my dream.
Sleeping safely in His soft, agape loving wings.

I know He holds my life in His hands,

and He sees my end of this road.

And if suffering brings me closer to my King,

then who am I to complain
if it gets me 
the Golden Ticket
to eternity.

ROMANS 5:3-5

NOT ONLY SO BUT WE ALSO GLORY IN OUR SUFFERINGS,

BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT SUFFERING PRODUCES

PERSEVERANCE;

PERSEVERANCE,

CHARACTER;

AND CHARACTER

HOPE.

AND HOPE DOES NOT PUT US TO SHAME,

BECAUSE GOD'S LOVE HAS BEEN POURED OUT

INTO OUR HEARTS

THROUGH THE HOLY SPIRIT,

WHO HAS BEEN GIVEN TO US.

FLY (UPDATED WITH TITLE AND SCRIPTURE)

Blessings come from everywhere,

from being able to sit in a chair

after weeks in bed,

too dizzy to stand up,

so weak in the legs.

Being touched by a friend,

prayed for by a sister,

loved by my husband,

encouraged by a brother.

Thinking we're alone,

when we're really not,

surrounded by angels,

side-by-side with our Lord.

I need to get past myself,

and remember God's promises,

that the time is near,

and blessings are upon us.

Don't give up,

know you're not alone,

I understand what you're going through,

and I know you have probably heard this many times before,
but God's timing is not our own.

God needs to be in control of your life,
on the driver's side.
Just hold on.
Jump off that cliff
and have the faith
to
fly.

PSALM 17:8

KEEP ME AS THE APPLE OF YOUR EYE;

HIDE ME IN THE SHADOW OF YOUR WINGS.

Questions (UPDATED)

Questions, that's all I seem to have,

lying in my bed,

feeling sorry for myself.

I have faith, I read His word,

but where has that gotten me in this world?

But I remind myself
that this world doesn't last,

neither do circumstances,

so I place my trust in Him,

and not in what the doctor says.

The time will come,

in this life or the next,

my body will be renewed,

and all of my questions will be laid to rest.

PROVERBS 4:23

ABOVE ALL ELSE,
GUARD YOUR HEART,
FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO
FLOWS FROM IT.

Pride (UPDATED)

Coming to terms with the cane, crutches and wheelchair, pride stands in the way.

It's the stares that bother me the most,

looking at me pitifully as if I wasn't whole,

or, my favorite, looking past me as if I was somehow magically invisible.

I need to come to terms with it

because there may never be a cure,

and maybe this is how God wants me

as long as I'm happy

so He can have all the glory.

I never expected to end up this way.

My sister was the sick one,

but I truly believe this is all part of God's plan.

Nowhere in His Word does He say this life will be a breeze,

especially if you're living for Him and fighting against evil every day.

I know God has the power to heal me,

but what if just for now

He wants to get rid of the pride

and let others take care of me for a while,
keep this thorn in my side?

Wouldn't He get the glory?

Because I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself,

and the next time someone stares at me I'm going to testify and praise His name.

Cane, crutches or wheelchair,

there's no stopping me now.

PSALM 27:13

I AM STILL CONFIDENT OF THIS:

I WILL SEE THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD

IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.

Running (UPDATED)

Why do I let pain be the name of the game 

when it only leads to self-pity, sorrow 

and not wanting to face tomorrow?

So what if my legs don't work like they should,

and I sometimes stoop over like I'm made of rotten old wood?

I have a husband who loves me,

three beautiful grown children whom I've raised,

a place to call home,

and I'm winning the race.

Despite all the roadblocks, the curves and the hills,
not to mention the too many u-turns,

there have been green pastures and valleys where God's allowed me to catch my breath and sit still.

I've heard my Lord's voice, and I believe the pain helps me to understand

a little of what my sweet Jesus went through and why He's still holding my hand.

So if this pain is here to stay,

the one thing I am sure of is that one glorious day

I'll have a new body

and will be able to run

through the fields of flowers,
drinking the water of life

and basking in the presence of the Son.

PSALM 27:14

WAIT FOR THE LORD;

BE STRONG

AND TAKE HEART

AND WAIT FOR THE LORD.