WHY? (RVD)

SITTING IN MY WHEELCHAIR

AT THE LOCAL EMERGENCY ROOM,

I TOOK A CHANCE AND GLANCED AT THE CLOCK

AND REALIZED I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR HELP

FOR SIX HOURS.

MY BODY WAS IN EXCRUTIATING AGONY,

SHARP FIRE LIKE PAINS SHOOTING UP AND DOWN MY SPINE,

TRYING  SO HARD TO HIDE MY CRYING.

WE DIDN'T GET HOME UNTIL FOUR THIS MORNING.

SO WHY AM I SO GRATEFUL NOW?

BECAUSE I KNOW GOD WAS WITH ME THE ENTIRE TIME,

AND I HAD A CHANCE TO TESTIFY JUST BY OTHERS WATCHING ME PRAYING.

I AM NOT ASHAMED.

I DO WONDER WHY, THOUGH, WHY I HAVE NOT YET BEEN HEALED.

I ASK MYSELF DAILY IS IT A QUESTION OF FAITH?

IS THIS BACK PAIN THE THORN IN MY SIDE?

AM I HELPING ANYONE BY LETTING THEM KNOW THERE IS HOPE AND A REASON FOR THEIR VERY EXISTENCE

AND THAT GOD CAN USE ANYONE, ANY TIME, ANY PLACE?

I PRAY SO,

SO AS MY OWN SUFFERING WOULD NOT BE IN VAIN.

JESUS SAYS THAT HE WILL NEVER PUT US THROUGH ANYTHING HE HASN'T BEEN THROUGH HIMSELF

OR NOTHING THAT WE CAN'T HANDLE.

BUT DON'T YOU SEE?

IF WE ARE TRULY WHO WE SAY WE ARE,

WE ARE NOT HANDLING A THING.

OUR LIFE BELONGS TO OUR SAVIOR AND KING.

AND SOME DAY SOON, THERE WILL BE NO MORE PAIN.

I AM GRATEFUL I'M A CHILD OF GOD,

AND I PRAY THAT WHATEVER I WRITE IS A COMFORT TO AT LEAST ONE PERSON IN THIS SMALL WORLD

AND HELPS THEM SEE THE TRUE NATURE OF GOD

AND DOES NOT GIVE UP

ON HIM OR HIS AGAPE LOVE.

NOT A GOOD TESTIMONY:  ARRIVED HOME FROM ER EARLY YESTERDAY AFTER BEING THERE FOR NEARLY 24 HOURS.  I HAD TO GO BY AMBULANCE, AND PRAISE GOD FOR ALL SUCH WORKERS.  BUT, UNFORTUNATELY, IT MUST HAVE BEEN A BUSY DAY FOR EMERGENCY ROOMS CUZ THEY WERE RE-ROUTING ALL AMBULANCES TO COUNTY.  NOT THAT I DON'T MIND COUNTY, BUT, PLEASE, AND I CAN SAY THIS CUZ I WORKED IN THE MEDICAL FIELD FOR ABOUT A SECOND:  PLEASE, IF YOU DO WORK IN THE MEDICAL FIELD AT ALL, IN ANY CAPACITY, THEN DO SO OUT OF EMPATHY.  GOOGLE IT.  OKAY, I'LL GET OFF MY SOAPBOX NOW.