UNFORGIVENESS = POISON

I LIKE TO SAY THAT UNFORGIVENESS WEIGHS.
IT'S TRUE, BUT UNFORGIVENESS IS ALSO POISON.
I SHOULD KNOW.
I AM JUST SO ANGRY TODAY.
ALL OF THE 'WELL, SHE HAS SO MUCH
GOING ON RIGHT NOW'S'?
I JUST CAN'T HEAR ANY MORE.
IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THAT WAY,
ALWAYS THE SAME,
ALWAYS THE EXCUSE
FOR THE ABUSE.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL
IF I SAT ON YOU UNTIL YOU COULD BARELY BREATH,
SQUEEZING YOU SO TIGHTLY,
THEN PUNCH YOU TO THE POINT
OF HAVING TO SPIT UP BLOOD INTO A BOWL
ON THE KITCHEN TABLE?
WELL?
AND, O, YES,
LET US NOT FORGET HOW YOU LOVED
TO LOCK ME IN DARK SPIDERS-EVERYWHERE
CLOSETS
ALL DAY.
AND HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF I SHOT YOU
IN YOUR LEGS WITH A BB GUN?
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT STINGS?
I LOOKED UP TO YOU, LOVED YOU,
JUST WANTED YOU TO LOVE ME.
BUT BECAUSE I HAD THE AUDACITY
TO BE BORN HEALTHY,
YOU APPARENTLY JUST COULDN'T HELP
YOURSELVES IN BALANCING THE SCALES.
AND IF I DARE BRING IT UP TO THIS DAY,
IT'S, DUH, MY FAULT.
ALWAYS.
BUT THEN I CAN SEE JESUS HANGING ON
THAT TREE ON CALVARY,
BLOOD AND WATER RUNNING DOWN HIS SIDE,
HUGE NAILS IN HIS FEET, IN HIS HANDS,
A CROWN OF THORNS SHOVED ON HIS HEAD,
BLOOD DRIPPING DOWN HIS FACE.
ALL OF THIS AFTER FLESH BEING STRIPPED
FROM HIS BACK.
AND HE HAD DONE NOTHING
BUT LOVE.
AND HANGING SO VERY PAINFULLY ON THAT CROSS
HE LOOKED TO THE LEFT,
HE LOOKED TO THE RIGHT,
AND HE FORGAVE.
SO WHO AM I TO ALLOW
THE TOXICITY OF UNFORGIVENESS
TO POSION MY HEART,
TO BLEED INTO WHO I AM TODAY?
I HAVE TO, MUST, STRIVE
TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS.
FORGIVE.
UNFORGIVENESS IS NOT ONLY POISON,
BUT IT IS A SIN.

1 JOHN 1:8 - IF WE CLAIM TO BE WITHOUT SIN, WE DECEIVE OURSELVES AND THE TRUTH IS NOT IN US.