LOCK ME UP AND THROW AWAY THE KEY (UPDATED AND NOW ON YOUTUBE)

I REALLY TRY, LORD,
I SO HONESTLY DO,
TO DO WHAT YOU SAY
AND ONLY THINK OF YOU.
BUT WHEN I ASK FOR ONE THING,
THAT I COULD SWIM AGAIN,
WHICH,
YOU KNOW,
IS MY MOST FAVORITE THING NEXT TO YOU.
SO, JESUS, WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SAY NO?
HAVE I DONE SOMETHING WRONG?
MUST I FORGIVE?
IS THAT WHY I FEEL AS IF
MY LIFE HAS BEEN SMASHED
INTO SMITHEREENS;
WHY MY HEART IS ACHING SO,
AND I JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY AS FAR AS I CAN,
HIDE,
AND CRY?
I JUST WANT TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN
AND NOT TREATED LIKE A LEPER
BY THE HYPOCRITES
WHO FEEL IT IS THEIR RIGHT TO SIT
FRONT ROW CENTER IN CHURCH OF ALL PLACES.
IS THAT ASKING TOO MUCH?
IS THAT JUST NOT IN YOUR WILL?
DO YOU HAVE SOMETHING DIFFERENT PLANNED FOR ME,
SOMETHING BETTER?
SOMETHING THAT WILL ONLY GIVE YOU ALL THE GLORY?
IF SO, COULD YOU JUST PLEASE TELL ME
WHICH DOOR TO OPEN
CUZ A THIS POINT, THERE ARE SO MANY DOORS,
I HAVE NO CLUE WHICH TO CHOOSE,
WHICH I SHALL TRY TO OPEN
HOPEFULLY
WITHOUT TOO MUCH TROUBLE.
IN FACT,
YOU HAD BETTER OPEN THAT DOOR
YOU WANT ME TO WALK THROUH
A LITTLE -
JUST A CRACK.
BUT IF IT'S LOCKED,
THEN YOU ARE THE KEY.
AND IF THE KEY DOESN'T FIT,
THEN I'M MOVING ON.
QUITE QUICKLY IN FACT,
WIPING MY FEET
SO TO SPEAK.
I'D RATHER BE HERE WRITING ABOUT YOU
WHERE NO ONE CAN SEE ME,
HONESTLY.
BUT I KEEP ON SEEING ME DOING MUCH MORE.
YOU KEEP ON SHOWING ME THIS VISION,
AND,
IF IT'S TRUE,
THEN IT SCARES THE SHADRACK OUT OF ME.
BUT JUST THINKING AND WRITING AND ENVISIONING IT,
THIS CALMNESS COMES OVER ME,
AND, SOMEHOW,
I JUST KNOW THAT IT'S YOUR WILL.
BUT AS FAR AS GIVING THE SPECIFICS,
I'M NOT ABOUT TO PUBLISH THAT PARTICULARITY
JUST TO MAKE SURE NO ONE LOCKS ME UP
AND THROWS AWAY THE KEY.
HEY,
IT'S OKAY
'CUZ, HONESTLY,
AT THIS POINT,
I'M READY.
TO BE LOCKED UP I MEAN.

ISAIAH 40:31

BUT THOSE WHO HOPE IN THE LORD WILL RENEW THEIR STRENGTH.  THEY WILL SOAR ON WINGS LIKE EAGLES; THEY WILL RUN AND NOT GROW WEARY.

THEY WILL WALK AND NOT BE FAINT.