SOARING

OKAY, SO,
SPOILER ALERT:
HERE I GO AGAIN,
TELLING IT LIKE IT IS.

LYING IN BED THIS MORNING,
LISTENING TO MY PRAISE AND WORSHIP MUSIC
LIKE I ALWAYS DO, ALMOST ALL THE TIME,
ALMOST EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY.
IT'S FUNNY WHEN YOU BEG GOD OVER AND OVER AGAIN
TO JUST BE ABLE TO HOLD HIS HAND
AND WALK IN THE GARDEN,
JUST ME AND HIM
WHAT CAN HAPPEN.


SO HERE'S MY THOUGHT:
I WONDER IF WHEN YOU FOUND OUT
I WAS MOSTLY CONFINED TO THIS WHEELCHAIR
IF MAYBE YOU POURED YOURSELF ANOTHER DRINK
AND SECRETLY CELEBRATED.
'SHE CAN'T WALK,'
YOU PROBABLY THOUGHT,
'AND SHE HAS TO WEAR A BRACE
AND PUT UP WITH ALL OF THE SNEAKY GLANCES.
IT'S ABOUT TIME,
CUZ I DID IT FIRST,
AND SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN SPOILED,
AND SPEAKS IN THAT RIDICULOUS
BREATHY
CHILDISH
MADE UP VOICE.'

COME ON, ADMIT IT.
IT'S JUST ME HERE
WITH A FEW OF MY FRIENDS.
YOU DIDN'T FOR ONE SPLIT SECOND
CELEBRATE?

WELL, SIS, I HAVE NEWS FOR YOU:
MY BODY MAY BE BROKEN,
BUT MY SPIRIT, MY SOUL
IS SOARING
ON THE WINGS OF AN EAGLE.
BECAUSE I KNOW WHATEVER HAPPENS
ON THIS PLACE I WILL NEVER BELONG,
I WILL NEVER CALL MY HOME,
WHATEVER HAPPENS
IS A MELODY
BECAUSE I KNOW
JESUS HAS SET A PATH BEFORE ME.
I AM A CHILD OF THE MOST HIGH,
KING OF KINGS,
SACRIFICAL LAMB,
JESUS CHRIST.
HE LOVES ME BEYOND MEASURE,
I AM THE APPLE OF HIS EYE,
HE WANTS MORE FOR ME THAN I WANT FOR MYSELF,
AND EVEN THOUGH AT THIS TIME AND PLACE
I AM SURROUNDED BY SHARDS OF BROKEN GLASS
THAT USED TO BE MY HEART,
I AM NOT ALONE.
AND I MAY BE TOO AFRAID TO TAKE EVEN ONE TINY STEP.
BUT I DON'T HAVE TO,
BECAUSE IN THESE TIMES
WHEN I AM SO DEVASTATED,
HE, 
JESUS I MEAN,
CARRIES ME
ALL THE WAY.
AND THE HOLY SPIRIT FILLS MY HEART 
LIKE NEVER BEFORE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.
GOOSE BUMPS AND ALL.
NO LIE.

SO, DEAR SISTER,
THERE WILL BE A DAY VERY SOON
WHERE SUNSHINE, WHO HAS BEEN FIGHTING
SO VERY HARD AND ENDLESSLY
TRYING TO BREAK FREE,
WILL BE FREE
FOR ETERNITY,
LYING IN THE GRASS
THAT USED TO GIVE HER SUCH BAD ASTHMA ATTACKS,
LOOKING UP IN THE BLUEST SKY YOU COULD NEVER
IMAGINE THE COLOR OF IT IN YOUR WILDEST DREAMS,
PUFFY CLOUDS IN THE SHAPES OF ANIMALS
DRIFTING BY.
AND, O, YES,
SITTING AT THE FEET
OF MY KING
LIKE I SAID
FOR ETERNITY.
SOARING.

ISAIAH 40:31

BUT THOSE WHO HOPE IN THE LORD WILL RENEW THEIR STRENGTH.

THEY WILL SOAR  ON WINGS LIKE EAGLES;

THEY WILL RUN AND NOT GROW WEARY,

THEY WILL WALK AND NOT BE FAINT.