iT'S JUST ME (UPDATED)

I don't have a stylist,

a hairdresser or make-up artist.

and I highlight the gray.
after all,
 God calls our gray hair a crown of splendor.
We have earned it.

But I can't erase

the wrinkles caused by the pain.

It's just me.

Extra weight,

here and there,

sometimes it's gone,

but then comes back again.
Update: the extra weight has stayed away.

I have to confess it's the stress.

I know I shouldn't allow myself

to stress out from the daily grind.

I am a woman of God,

and that's just fine.

And every day,

I can't hide what's inside.

I have to share,

I must write

before I burst

while I still have time.

I was quiet for far too long.

I can't help but let it out

or I will explode.

Always the shy one,

not wanting to make any waves.

Stay in the corner,

hide away.

Don't bring any attention to myself,

place my thoughts on a shelf.

God gave me a voice, though,

for a reason,

and this is the season

to share what I've been through,

not to be ashamed,

be proud of my name,

of who I am

and what God has given me,

my history.

The words just flow

from deep within my heart and soul.

I can't help but share

because I care.

Loving is just a part of me and my integrity.

I'm not perfect,

I've sinned a lot,

I've been there.

So right now

I'm giving it my best shot.

PSALM 19:14 - MAY THESE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE MEDITATION OF MY HEART BE PLEASING IN YOUR SIGHT, LORD, MY ROCK AND MY REDEEMER.

* PROVERBS 16:31 - GRAY HAIR IS A CROWN OF SPLENDOR: IT IS ATTAINED IN THE WAY OF RIGHTEOUSNESS.