HE CARRIES ME (UPDATE)

SICKNESS SEEMS TO FOLLOW ME
AS IF IT WHERE A BAD DREAM
OR A JUST-OVER-ME SURROUNDING DARK CLOUD.

I HAVE NO CONTROL,
NOR DO I WISH TO,
OVER THE ELEMENTS,
OVER GOD'S PLAN.
I KNOW HE WILL NEVER GIVE ME
MORE THAN I CAN HANDLE.
AFTER ALL,
HE USES THE WEAK LIKE ME
TO SHAME THE STRONG.

BUT THEN I QUESTION HIM
AND WONDER IF HE REALLY DOES NOW
ALL OF THE PAIN I HAVE SUFFERED,
HAVE BEEN IN AND STILL AM.
DOES HE CARE?
IS HE THERE?
HAS HE SUFFERED?
DOES HE UNDERSTAND?

BUT WHEN MY HEART BREAKS,
WHICH IT DOES,
CUZ YOU KNOW US SENSITIVE ARTISTS TYPES,
A CALMNESS SUDDENLY OVERTAKES ME,
A CALM THAT DOES NOT EXIST
IN THIS EARTHLY REALM.
A CALM THAT CAN ONLY BE FELT
WHEN YOU LET YOUR HEART
BE HELD IN JESUS' LOVING HANDS.
A CALM THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM HEAVEN.

AND NOW I AM FACED WITH THIS NEW SICKNESS,
AND I PRAY FOR A MIRACLE
SO ALL OF THE DOCTORS ON MY CASE WILL KNOW
THAT MIRACLES STILL EXIST.
AFTER ALL,
JESUS IS THE SAME
TODAY,
YESTERDAY
AND TOMORROW.

I BELIEVE
AND I TRY
TO LIVE
AS IF
JESUS WAS CRUCIFIED YESTERDAY,
ROSE TODAY,
AND IS COMING BACK TOMORROW.

WE MUST ALWAYS LIVE BY FAITH,
NEVER BY SIGHT,
TRY TO PEER THROUGH THE GLASS DARKLY,
BELIEVE IN THE UNSEEN,
AND KEEP THE FAITH.

BECAUSE THE FALLEN ONE,
WHOM I LIKE TO CALL LU,
SENDS
HIS HARMLESS LITTLE DIRTY MINIONS
TO CONVINCE YOU
THAT YOU DON'T DESERVE
THE GIFTS THAT GOD IS SENDING YOUR WAY
AND THE AZURE BLUE SKIES
THAT ARE RIGHT NOW FORMING,
WITH LITTLE PURE WHITE PUFFY CLOUDS
THAT LOOK LIKE ALL KINDS OF ANIMALS.

TRUST ME,
JESUS KNOWS
ALL OF THE PAIN YOU FEEL,
EVERYTHING HE HAS BROUGHT YOU THROUGH.
JESUS IS OUR FAMILY,
OUR HEAVENLY DADDY.

JESUS LOVES ALL OF US
BEYOND ALL THINGS
AND WHEN THINGS GET TOUGH
LIKE RECENTLY,
HE GENTLY CARRIES ME
AND YOU.

PROVERBS 3:5-6 - TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND LEAN NOT ON YOUR UNDERSTANDING; IN ALL YOUR WAYS SUBMIT TO HIM, AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT.