NOTW (NOT OF THIS WORLD) (COMPLETELY UPDATED)

HOW DO YOU FORGIVE

WHEN YOU'VE BEEN HURT FOR NO REASON?

HOW DO YOU FORGIVE WHEN YOU'VE BEEN LOCKED IN VERY DARK, DAMP CLOSETS CONSTANTLY

BY YOUR OLDER, ONLY SISTER?

HOW DO YOU FORGIVE

WHEN YOU FEEL HATED,

BERATED,

CALLED HURTFUL NAMES

THAT STILL STICK TO THIS DAY - 

LIKE DUMB AND UGLY?

HOW DO YOU FORGIVE

WHEN YOU'VE BEEN MADE

TO FEEL INVISIBLE

BECAUSE YOUR SISTER HAD POLIO?

JESUS SUFFERED WORSE THAN ME,

AND HE FORGAVE.

SO WHY CAN'T I?

I MUST FIND FORGIVENESS IN MY HEART 

IF I AM MEANT TO CONTINUE.

I MUST FIND IT IN MY SOUL

IF I AM TO CONFESS THAT I AM NOT WORTHY

TO RECEIVE HIS GRACE

THAT CAME FROM THAT CROSS.

THE SACRIFICE

THAT WAS GIVEN SO FREELY.

WHY, O WHY, GOD, DID YOU PLACE ME

IN SUCH AN UNLOVING FAMILY?

ONE THAT ABUSED AND BERATED AND MADE ME FEEL HATED

DAILY?

AND LET'S NOT EVEN MENTION THE PHYSICAL ABUSE.

AFTER ALL,

IT'S BEEN A FAMILY SECRET FOR SO LONG.

OR DID THEY JUST DECIDE IT WAS EASIER TO IGNORE WHAT WAS GOING ON?

BUT YOU CHOSE ME, JESUS,

OUT OF ALL OF THEM,

MAKING ME FEEL A LITTLE LIKE DAVID.

YOU CHOSE ME BEFORE I WAS EVEN ME.

OTHERWISE, WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE POINT

OF THIS PARTICULAR REALITY?

LORD, I PRAY THAT I CAN FORGIVE,

AND I KNOW THAT  ALL OF THIS PAIN WILL BE FORGOTTEN THE FIRST DAY I AM WITH YOU.

IT WILL ALL HAVE BEEN WORTH IT.

JOHN 18:36 - JESUS SAID, "MY KINGDOM IS NOT OF THIS WORLD."